today, i just cried and cried and cried and cried.  i cried till i cant see anything anymore on the street while im driving.  the kind of crying when you feel something is being hammered in your heart.  this is what vulnerability is.  is it? 

i dont know what to feel.  i just dont know anymore.  im so tired.  i just cant afford to give my heart away anymore.  at least what is left of it.  i want to keep it til it is pursued again.  i want love, is that too much to ask.  maybe, it is an expensive thing for anyone to give, even me.